The aftermath of last week.

It is now 200 people that have died in the fire with many more still missing. Although there are some answers to the how and why these fires were started the disbelief that something like this could happen is still on my mind.

Although the media circus seems to have died down my thoughts are still with those who have lost just so much. I fear for them and the insecurity they must feel. How do these parents tell their kids that everything will be alright when tucking them in at night when they can not possibly feel that themselves. Who hugs them? Who tells them everything will be alright? How are they really coping now that it is all sinking in, does shock and sadness turn to anger? Now that the media frenzy stops do they then begin to feel people will forget when the next big news happens?

I just had to stop watching the news reports it was taking a toll on my my emotions, self preservation I guess. Switching off did not help, I still seem to walk around in this limbo wondering how they are coping and hoping by some miracle I could work out a way to make difference. I also feel a misplaced guilt for I have not lost anything I sleep in my comfortable bed surrounded by those I love, things I own and treasure. What right do I have to cry so much for "my Marysville" when I have not lived there for so long?

I am so angry that these people have to pay a mortgage on a house they no longer have, with a job they can no longer go to. These big banks have so much to answer for. Why can't these people declare themselves "bankrupt by natural disaster" where debts could be written off and they could start fresh and without a bad credit rating. The banks could write off bad debts in their taxes anyway, not like they can't afford it.

Why should the firebug have protective custody? If he likes fire that much put him up in an Elvis choppa and push him off into one of the fires and lets see if he can snuff it out. As for the electricity company, you bastards have been cost cutting for so long and don't do maintenance until something breaks. It is bad enough we have to deal with constant power failures and outages but it was only a matter of time that someone was going to get killed with your lack of responsibility. Who could ever have imagined you would kill so many. It was all for the sake of making more money for your share holders, now let see where all your profits go after the class action. You should be ashamed of yourselves.

Well I guess my shock and sadness has also turned to anger.